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Location: Cheltenham
Well, some of you will remember me, some of you won't. But I guarantee the ones who remember me don't know me any more
I've been away a few months and I've come back a totally different person. Hence, new person, new intro. Here comes... (stolen off of Charles cause his was handy)Name: Simon (AKA Neuron, FaultyNeuron, GameCat, Angry Badger, Super Geek)
Age: 24
Location: Cheltenham, UK
Your favourite website/s: Home of Poi, Vector Sigma, Various Web Comics, Various Game Sites
Favourite Toys: Poi, Staff, Played a little with flags and contact juggling.
Been twirling for: I dunno. Don't keep track any more.
Occupation: Currently between jobs. >_<
Hobbies: Hanging out in local music/culture/coffe shop/net cafe place and talking to the most fantastic gathering of creative minds known to humanity, fixing friends' computers, socialising, clubbing, hanging out in camden, photography (mostly of events), art, books, movies
Music: I like what I like, genre is a word that can be used to describe style, not tastes.
Movies: Ack! Damnit! So many!
Books: See movies
Favourite Colour: Red, currently.
Favourite Quote/Saying: "Thong?" "Thank You, Captain Obvious" "Meh"
Favourite Food: Itallian
Best Advice Ever Received: If you want to piss off those who have angered you, live a happy life, die happy and die of old age.
Random Fact About Me: I am so loved up recently.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Super Gidg!!!!
8,506 posts
Location: Portland Oregon USA
Gidg waltzes in singing at the top of her voice
Oh what a beautiful moooorning!
Oh what a beautiful day!
Mmmmmm, Ok so it's not a morning anymore but it has been one beautiful day!!!
Spread the cheer handsome!
Growing old is mandatory; growing up is NOT.
Proud member of the HoP DPS.
Sanity is a highly overrated state of mind.
I'm normal ... it's everyone else that's crazy.
Gidg
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Thankies Gidglette.
Sadly, I'm sure people who know me will have noticed my post rate around here dropping like a stone in a pond.
Yeah, this place just doesn't feel the same to me since I came back. I dunno what it is. I guess I went out, found other people, other communities.
Spinning has become something of a back of my mind thing.
HoP still has a lot of stuff attatched to it, and always will, too much for it to feel like a home any more.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
I span fire for the first time in ages last night. About five months. I'd forgotten how much fun it was.
This is also the reason for the new avatar.
It was also my first time spinning with an audience of people who don't themselves spin. They hadn't even seen fire spinning before, infact. All good mates and I got a round of applause afterwards even.
A lot of fun.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Ghostbuster
455 posts
Location: York, UK
i think i know what you mean about it feeling different around here now. maybe its coz i never seem to see anyone in the IRC channel when i have a look in.
veteran
1,389 posts
Location: Guelph, ON, Canada
I don't think anyone sees anyone else in the IRC room anymore
T'is the way things evolve, I suppose.~ Bobo
wie weit, wie weit noch?
fragst mich, wo wir gewesen sind...
du fehlst hier
Ghostbuster
455 posts
Location: York, UK
:-(
shame
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
distinct shame. i miss it. i think it's (partially) cause newnet is broken though in all honesty.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Carpal \'Tunnel
3,136 posts
Location: Warwickshire, United Kingdom
no, it's cause my server died and no one could be arsed to go to telehouse and fix it
everything runs again as it did again now
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Just a quick post from a PC that isn't my home PC to say my home PC is broken so my HoP time will be limited until it is repaired which, as I am too poor to affoard a replacement power supply, may be some time.
I'll miss you all.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Super Gidg!!!!
8,506 posts
Location: Portland Oregon USA
Poor Quix
Broken PC, not good. Bad. Very Bad. Growing old is mandatory; growing up is NOT.
Proud member of the HoP DPS.
Sanity is a highly overrated state of mind.
I'm normal ... it's everyone else that's crazy.
Gidg
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Well my PC has been fixed for a while but I've been all busy with KJ and Poi and work and stuff but I guess I'm backish.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise.
2,293 posts
Location: NJ or DE, USA
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!! Quix is back! Quix is back!
**GLOMP**
Welcome back!
Here, I made you some cookies! **hands Quix a plate of cookies**
Are you suggesting coconuts migrate?
Pies Jesu Domine *whack*
Dona eis requiem *whack*
Come join us and chat - we're bored! irc.newnet.net #homeofpoi
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Thank you, Ela, very kind.
I've been thinking weird things today. I think, though it's hard to judge as a year ago seems so long ago, that it's about two years ago that I got diagnosed as clinically depressed. Well, since a good friend gave me the nudge I needed to go and get that diagnosis.
I remember this time last year, or if I'm right about timing I remember, looking back over the year since my diagnosis and thinking how much things had changed. They seemed to have changed a lot, I was in love, things were going well, I had plans for the future.
Now I'm doing it again, looking back over the last year and feeling how amazingly different everything is.
I've come to an important conclusion. This time last year I was far from over the depression. You see, I did things the hard way. No reliance on drugs, not much counselling, just "pulling myself together". How very British. How very stupid. Well, the stupidity was in believing that things could change that quickly.
Over the last year I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of. Treated employers with less than due respect and (rightfully) ended up unemployed afterwards. Treated friends very badly, very very badly in some cases, both here and in real life and ended up without them as friends (again, rightfully).
I regret these things. Yeah, I do.
On the other hand, in the last year this time I think I *have* gotten over the depression. In the last half of this 12 months I can't think of any bad things I've done to people, not in the same way. Some minor stuff here and there but no more than is real life.
On the other hand though I have an amazing social life with friends I never even knew a year ago, people I have met and become so close to. I take random trips to Bristol with friends because they want me there to support them because I'm "so together" (which surprises, flatters and reassures me). I've got people coming to me to help them pull projects and ideas together for the same reason. I've got more stuff to do than I have time to do it and I'm in love again.
It feels different this time, it feels right. She and I fit together and it's a natural fit, not an unnatural one. We snuggle together, eat, watch bad tv and do very couply things. It's amazing. Occasionally scary but then I realise as scary as it is, it's what I want.
I'm still unemployed. It's hard to get jobs doing what I do in this small town and I don't want to go anywhere else because of the friends and the scene I have encountered and even helped to create here. It's my home. It's where my roots are. For now, at least.
It's been quite a year.
To those of you on here that I have hurt or offended with my actions in the last year, I'm not going to offer the above explanation as an excuse. I don't think there is one. There are more of you than any of you could guess and to all of you I'm sorry.
---
Quix
(wow, a bit more deep than I'd intended that one)
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Super Gidg!!!!
8,506 posts
Location: Portland Oregon USA
Actually Quix it's not an easy thing to do what you have done. Most people would not want to publicly admit they have done something wrong let alone apologize for it. Kudos.
Growing old is mandatory; growing up is NOT.
Proud member of the HoP DPS.
Sanity is a highly overrated state of mind.
I'm normal ... it's everyone else that's crazy.
Gidg
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Hey guys, an update.
Anyway things are looking up. I'm settled, I've sort of got a jobish maybe (will update again when I know for sure, hopefully in a week or so) but the big news is it's almost 3 months in to my relationship with Kayleigh and so far things are absolutely fantastic.
So yeah life has improved.
Still swinging from time to time. The fact that KJ spins is a big inspiration.
Could do with a for-certain on the job thing but other than that, life's treating me pretty well right now.
It's been a weird month though. A lot of stuff to deal with.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
old hand
845 posts
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Hello!! Haven't heard from you in ages!!
Slicing the Loaf as we speak.
I need it..... Trust me!
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
I've been uber-busy locally. The relationship is certainly taking its share of time but between that, spinning, photography (sort of unofficial-official photographer for about 3 different regular events now) and various other fantastic social engagements, not to mention the job hunt...
Anyway, yes, I'm still alive!
Thanks for remembering me
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
1,359 posts
Location: London/ Surrey
Long time no see! Glad things are getting to be where you want them to be... the photography thing sounds cool. The optimist claims that we are living in the best of all possible worlds.
The pessimist fears this is true.
Always make time to play in the snow.
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
The photography thing is cool
I'm really enjoying it. I'm also working on a rather nice website which is related to that, I'm working on a site that will be the official home of Cheltenham's Graffiti writers. Legal stuff, of course, at events and the local skate park and the like. There will be a gallery of less legal material, I imagine, but with big "we don't condone" disclaimers So yeah stuff's good. Still need that darn job but I have a few applications in here and there.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise.
2,293 posts
Location: NJ or DE, USA
Wow! What a coinkidink! The same day I get a chance to poke my nose around the forums is the same day I run into a Quix!
Hiya! **glomp**
Glad things are going well! Hope you manage to catch that sneaky little job soon 
Anyhoo, enjoy the loverly UK fall weather, and have a brownie or two! **hands Quix a plate of brownies** Are you suggesting coconuts migrate?
Pies Jesu Domine *whack*
Dona eis requiem *whack*
Come join us and chat - we're bored! irc.newnet.net #homeofpoi
1,359 posts
Location: London/ Surrey
Nice to see you back and browsing, Q! (And Elanna, for that matter!)
The optimist claims that we are living in the best of all possible worlds.
The pessimist fears this is true.
Always make time to play in the snow.
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
ooh, ela, ooh poly, ooh brownies!
not a bad day
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
Super Gidg!!!!
8,506 posts
Location: Portland Oregon USA
Hiya Quix
Growing old is mandatory; growing up is NOT.
Proud member of the HoP DPS.
Sanity is a highly overrated state of mind.
I'm normal ... it's everyone else that's crazy.
Gidg
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Heya Gidglette
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Wow totally weird fact.
I just discovered a couple of my friends went through the exact same thing as I did start of the year, hell one of them even went through it around the same time.
Came up cause he was telling me about how they're talking again and he even went out on the town with them today (as friends).
Gives me some kinda hope. I'm happy for them.
Also weird, and nice, to discover it's not quite as unique as I thought.
It also looks like I'm the only one of us who has a good relationship now which is a definite boost to the mental state, the fact I'm adjusted and moved on, in my own way.
Anyway just thought I'd mention that cause it's really stuck with me today.
Happy thanksgiving to all you 'merican folks. Happy month until Xmas to lots of other folks. And, urm, happy late november to everyone not already covered
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
I'm moving house. Kind of like now. Wow, this is a weird experience, so, yeah I might not be around for a few days until i get a network connection sorted. Just so people know.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
Here's a weird feeling that has come across me.
Imagine something for a moment, imagine your life summed up in boxes. Everything you've bought, found, been given (that's another story entirely) everything you've aquired in your life and the memories assosciated with them all. Imagine all that in terms of a number of boxes, a measurement of cubic space and nothing more.
That's where I am.
This year I lost love, lost my dream job, found love stronger and more true and (just very recently) founded my own company. So it's been one large circle that's ended really well for me and put me in a very different place to where I was at the beginning of the year. It's been a huge up. I've never been happier than I have been lately but right now, well, things aren't quite the same.
I am sat at this moment surrounded by the wreckage of my life typing this on my laptop because my computer has been secured for transport. I am moving and this means I am packing. My life and everything I own is getting squished down, wrapped in paper and shoved in boxes. It's an alarming realisation when you look at a wall of stacked boxes with scribbled notes of contents and destination written on them and think 'is that me? is that what i ammount to?'
And along with it come realisations. I lost something a few months ago. It went away and I looked but never found. It was a picture, entitled 'Bad Axe' which was given to me. It meant a lot to me that picture, it was something someone had remembered my saying 'ooh I like that' about and held that information, filed it until the time came to give me something then they gave me something i truly cared for. A kindness I tried to repay. Memories, lots of memories.
I found it recently but didn't give it a lot of thought. Tonight, however, I was grabbing things to shove them in boxes and I grabbed the cardboard tube the picture had come in, was still in, complete with the giver's name written on the side. I stopped and sat down just looking at it, holding it and remembering.
Truth be told I haven't put it in a box yet, it'll be one of the last things I put away. I want it there where I can see it for now, I want it where it can remind me that I'm more than the sum of posession, that I'm memories and experiences, that I'm ever-changing because things have changed so much since I was given it, my feelings, others' feelings and everything it seems has changed since I was given that gift, that to all intents and purposes unopened gift.
So yes, take a look around you next time you're home, picture everything you have and own packed and labelled and wonder 'is this me?'. I have and it's an eye opener. It leads you inevitably to what's important. I recommend it.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
64 posts
Location: Cheltenham, England
(Hugs)
We are never the sum of our posessions. Even those we make with our own hands are only evidence of our skills, not 'us'. We are the sum of our experiences, the end product of the shaping life has done to us over our lives. And if you look at yourself and be happy, then you've come out fine.
But yes, I sort of understand what you mean. I'm no good at 'rooting' though, so I can't totally understand. I see boxes as collections of things that I could easily live without (and would likely be better off without in some respects) but make me comfortable and have their own memories connected to them.
It's good that you have something connected so strong to that time of your life not only for memory purposes, but also because it helps you to chart how far you've come since then. We are always building on ourselves, always changing, endless evolution, always shifting. Sometimes it's nice to just be still and reflect on those changes, see them for the positive steps that they were and feel a degree of anticipation of the steps ahead.
Steps the ones who you love and love you in return will walk with you, as you take steps with them.
I can't be evil; I'm wearing pink.
912 posts
Location: Cheltenham
1 year today.
"We have done the impossible and that makes us mighty" - Mal Reynolds
"I can't tell the difference between an electron and a cat" - Brother of a friend
1,269 posts
Location: middle of Troon
hi
not seen you around much on here. i think we've both been laying low. met someone recently, reminded me of you. just saw you thread thought i'd say hey. its been a year now. how fast did it go? you say lots has changed since then and your happier now. I'm so glad to hear that.
Hope you like hugs now. I personally couldn't live without them. and i thank you for teaching me that not all are comfortable with that. i did a tiny bit of growing up that weekend.
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