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Posted: 25th Nov 2004
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EDITED_BY: pk_is_back (1132194480)

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
see i cut back on my language too! only 10 censors in that post!.

You can read more about me over on my site https://www.poiinthepark.net
my views on poi, what i do for the community, my site and whats does make me happy and what i create graphically and many good videos of poi.

well i hope you did make that coffee, because you've been sat reading this for quite some time!

Thank you for taking the time to read about me.

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
*blush*








........................pool sucks

Geologists do it in the dirt................

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
did you just skim read that???? miss fairy! just to the good stuff about you! huh huh did ya, it took me ages to read it back to myself.
either that or you read like rob.

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Posted: 25th Nov 2004
Hey pk. Takes a lot of guts to let others read about your life!
Cheers!
ps. Your writing style reminds me of Geoff Thompson!

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
cheers dude.


excuse me for being rudely uneducated but geoff tompson is???

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
I didn't skim it. I read from the poem first because (having recognised it from your wall) that's where I wanted to start



I will carry on reading as and when, a little here and there, but I'm going to send you these anyway cos a) they're nice and yellow and b) we all need a good hugging sometimes.



Thank you for helping me understand you a little better.

Geologists do it in the dirt................

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
Woah, that's a hell of a post. I'm gonna sit down and read it tomorrow when I'm a bit more awake...

"Take that, math!"

AnonymousPLATINUM Member

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
No worries! He used to work as a doorman and a bouncer. And wrote about his experiences. "Watch My Back" by Geoff Thompson.
Cheers!

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
lol kato has many a tale to tell about being a doorman, tell you the truth that book sounds familular come to think of it.
i cant read books im still half way through one i started 2 years ago haha.
thanks dude.

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
what was that about the "teaching moves" thread?

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
Holy [censored] dude!!! you left anything out?

Written by: PK

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i cant read books im still half way through one i started 2 years ago haha

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Don't worry about that. I've been reading Lord of the Rings for the last 22 years (seriously).

Written by: PK again

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you know I don’t think I have ever met any one that has such beautiful eyes as Ros does

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Oi. i have eyes too y'know! gaze into mine for a while Bitch.....


Plus how come it you only mentioned me 3 times. And nothing about our unrequited love....

Oh and it wasn't your coffee making that woke me at sheffield. I'd been awake since about 4am. You should've said something! Next time we'll go out and cause some [censored] instead of trying to sleep


love you PK (even if you can't write in short choppy sentences)


Wicked intro though fella. One of the best i've ever seen. such a compelling read. Well done.

but you forgot one thing. You forgot to address the Alice question....

Meh

Posted: 25th Nov 2004

Written by: pk ....:™

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lol kato has many a tale to tell about being a doorman,

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yeah most of his stories would be about how he would victimise me

he had me searched on my birthday 2 years in a row. The stumpy little sod....

Meh

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
cheers cantus, glad you liked it.

what address of which alice question in particular are we speaking of, she was dreaming! what more can i say?

lol rather unfortunate of you to be searched on your birthday though thats gotta suck, but then kato had that weirdness about him some times.

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
pk - your story had me taking such an emotional journey with you. Even if only for the duration of 22 pages, I feel like I know and understand you a whole lot better. I can feel your pain.

I was almost in tears when reading the part about your grandmother in the hospital.

You are much like me in many ways, although our lives and our backgrounds are worlds apart. You wear your heart on your sleeve, you are a serial monogamist and you can see the beauty in most people, and fall for it at the drop of a hat.

Much love, and thanks so much for sharing.

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Posted: 25th Nov 2004
Oh sorry i was meaning the "do you like pink?" question that she always addresses to people in the intros section

Meh

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
lol thanks flash, the few people i have had the pleasure in sharing this with while writing have all commented that they have cried!, even a guy, to be honest its been tough and to get it in writing with all of my emotions to flood out like that was really hard for me, but also extremly good for me in many other ways.

Ive shed too many tears myself in recent months, nights of crying myself to sleep just because i felt so messed up inside but then that doesnt help things, i learn to just try and get on with it all how ever possible i can make it.

Ill keep adding to my writing over time no doubt, ive started now! its all public with no secrets, no lies and all me.



i made nat read it before i left matlock.... oooo that didnt go down too well, i forgot to add that to it at the time but she hated the fact that it was all true and thats how she made me feel and act, love is blind but then so was she.



cantus i dont think alice has ever asked me that question yet... i feel it a brewing right now though.

Posted: 25th Nov 2004
dont you think my posts are way more lengthy than they were 2 / 3 years ago???

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
P.K I am not actually posting on HOP at the moment because Im pissy pants, but I will make one exception for you.
You are such a beautiful soul and I feel honoured that you have shared this story with us.
For some reason even though we havent met and have only spoken on the phone, I feel like I know you. You have a sweet and gentle energy and I honour the way that you have let us see you.
I spoke about you with FNF when she was staying with us and she shone when she talked about you, She spoke openly with her heart, about how you are such a good friend to her.

Smile to yourself about how beautiful you are PK, because not many people could be as open and honest about themselves as you have been.
Thank you.

Now back to my pissy pants non posting.

TAJ "boat mummy." VALURA "yes sweetie you went on a boat, was daddy there with you?" TAJ "no, but monkey on boat" VALURA "well then sweetie, Daddy WAS there with you"

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
Pk... (It may only be a graemlin, but)

I know I said to make an intro, but, this wasn't what I was thinking you'd do...

I thank you, thank you for openning yourself so much to so many. And I hope that one day, if you'd allow it, I too could be part of your future...

And by the way... this has been the best read I've ever had the honour of reading...

Thank you Pk...

I can't hear you... I have a banana in my ear.

"You mean I'll have to use my brain?... but I use staff!!!" ~ ben-ja-men

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
PK........



For once im actually a bit short for words mate can you beleive that??



Youve been a great friend to me too, the support you gave me last year will never be forgotten, and im hoping our friendship will always be there! Your a special friend to me. xx



Hope to speak to you soon, much love mate. (and ginger biccies and nescafe when i visit )

Only when the last tree has died
and the last river has been poisoned
and the last fish has been caught
will we realise that we
cannot eat money.

Cree Indian, 1909

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
Wow! Thats a pretty impressive intro... thank u for sharing that with us. Writing things down like that alwasy makes you reflect and consider your past differently and remember things that you thought u had forgotten! xxx

tHeReS gOoD aNd EvIl iN EaCh InDiViDuAl fIrE, iDeNtIfIeS nEeDs AnD fEeDs OuR dEsIrEs.

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
kristy, troy and ali

val, get you piss arse back on here, i miss you... or at least be on msn so i can talk!
arsn told ya;) gave you pre warning..... lol
astro you can have on in person very soon. if i hadnt have had to cover a 3 hour shift yesterday iwas going ot be in town, but i couldnt be bothered.
vixen: more than a few years of pent up emotions held in there, some times that the only way to release them and undestnad your trueself.

see heres how i see myself right now.

getting old....
gotta start a new relationship when i was happy with the one i had *kinda* but it might be a lot of fun... i hope
has ok career prospects.
paranoid
depressive
easily frustrated
hides things [ali ] like keeping secrets.
addictive
funny in a very strange way... my humour is quite hard to take unless you really get to know my moods.

so its not all bad, i got a few quality points, so if you have any georgously fit girlie friends on the rebound.... just kidding. im not like that.
still trying to get over you being short for words ali, i can never get rid of you on the phone hahaha kidding.



some thing just annoyed the hell out of me, its 10.50 am, i went to bed at 5.30am this morning and im now sat with a black coffee cos i ran out of milk at stupid o'clock, well some geeza calls, indian of course, bad english, from a mobile number, shouts up your mobile phone is comming up to the end of its contract!, this got me stumped for a moment, this guy didnt even ask me my security details, not that he was given any... my contracts not up till my Birthday in march lol
i dont understand companies some times, i know hes just doin his job, but does he think im thick?... dont answer that.

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
Dude,

I was going to read this last night, but Halo got the better of me, so i decided to do it today at work (well why not get paid to read eh )

Although weve never met - you should certanly have some of these

It certanly does take balls to tell the world of your life and feelings and i take my hat off to you for doing so.........***looks for hat removing gremlin***

One thing i can connect with there for is your back problem, i had a spinal fusion done when i was 19 - was out of work for 9months, i hated feeling "useless" and totally hear what you were going through there...........and the cold really does screw with it as you said.

I look forward to meeting you in person PK in a spinny event sometime soon - your poi vids have always been an insperation to me and i know feel i know more about you then some of the friends ive currently got!

Take it eezy dude

Look forward to seeing PIP grow even more

"...We don't stop playing because we get old, we get old because we stop playing......."

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
whoa

i really dont know you at all pk but i could defo give you a for that.

like strugz i read it all this morning while n work when i should have been typing my weekly reports

like vix, it really made me reflect on my own life and experience.

hope i get to meet you someday.

a

Love is the law.

Posted: 26th Nov 2004

Written by:

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I learn a lot about Ros that night from that experience... thanks Ros for giving me one special evening with you. Rematch at pool? , lol.

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Thank you too, my friend. You helped me a lot that weekend - probably more than I have yet realized. And you should know that. I think I learned a lot about me too - and about you.



Guess what? I might just have to start writing stuff down before I forget it.







*searches under the cushions* ---- still no pink?

Geologists do it in the dirt................

Posted: 26th Nov 2004


biyatch.

Holistic Spinner (I hope)

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
how bizarely my life has turned over the past year, but i just sat down and had dinner with my ex inl-aws to be, still seems quite strange that i have a bond with them after every thing that has happened and all that has been said about me to them.





hey ros, i think a lot about growing up and experiencing things in life is about finding out who you really are not about some one else, we all strive to know one another and that is good, but to know ones trueself makes all of the difference, look into a friends eyes and tell me what you see.

Posted: 26th Nov 2004
today is getting stranger by the minuite.



so yet again.... no day off from work this week! i had to cover for a while cos it was busy downstairs, i dont mind... i get enough free beer to be concerned with lending a hand.

Then having dinner with my ex-in-laws which i didnt have to do i just wanted a beer and they were downstairs because my ex mother in-law has been heer most of the week again, then i spend my time on my own in my room when im not working so i havnt had much time to sit and speak with her, so i guess im only being social.

so i've sat at my desk trying to do some work on poiinthepark and i saw an old friend come online on yahoo so we hooked up for a chat and i had loads of old memories that came flooding back to me from a few years ago.

Some thing that made me realise that there are some people out there that just get shat on some times.

well a few years ago, i used to talk to April a hell of a lot, she's a model from the Toronto Area, shes always been such a beautiful person, and i always seem to think about her all of the time and today she came online i was so overjoyed im myself to get to say hello. She was in England a few years ago, we'd been emailing each other while she was here, then all of a sudden she disapeared, i didnt recieve any replies at all for months, then all of a sudden i saw her online, it turned out that while she was over here a few moments after i had last spoke with her on the phone she got a call from home to tell her that her son had died... i felt so gutted for her, we spoke a few times after that but she kinda disapeared for a while, i remember the last time i spoke to her i was still living in sheffield, i think around the time i had just got together with nat, for those that remember on the very origional poiinthepark site... my god how naffCo54 was that site. but i left a personal tribute for baby james, i doubt any one will remember, April never got to read it but she asked me about it today, but i went and lost the site where it was so i couldnt show her.

She gave me some good news and some more rather daunting news, she now has another 5 month old baby son but the preceeded to expalin to me that the new borns fatherless, how gutting is that, i so feel for April every time i get to speak to her i always feel emotional, im actually crying writing this right now, it hurts that my friend has gone through that.

im not going to write any more about it, im too upset right now.
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Posted: 26th Nov 2004
Right the question:

Do you like the colour pink

there we go, i asked it.
PK you are brave telling your life story on here.

Never pick up a duck in a dungeon...