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Posted: 19th Aug 2004
Was there something in Perth that you are running from (even subconsciously)? Are you the type of person who likes constant change in your life and never letting others get too close to you? Do you get scared when someone does?

Those are a few reasons a friend of mine left on a similar journey. The journey however helped her learn a lot of things about herself, what she wanted out of life, and how better to be the person she really wanted to be.

Posted: 19th Aug 2004
Sorry if I put a downer on things, but your are growing up. Your younger years are slowly being left behind. The next thing you know you want security in your life, a good job and friends and family around you. Believe me I've been there. It just hit me all of a suddern with no warning, I felt excactly the same way.



I quit my job left the country then BOOM! there it was, my sensibly side that I'd managed to hide for so long popped up.

It's not all bad though, I'm still having just as much fun now as I used to.

Things always work out in the end.

If everything seems under control, your not going fast enough!

It's not the size of the wave, it's the length of the ride!

Posted: 19th Aug 2004
there probably is a reason, you might just not know what it is yet though... stick with it, the best adventures happen when you don't know where you're going

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if it makes no sense that's because it's NOn-sense.

Posted: 19th Aug 2004
Ahhh homesickness...I remember it well.

Don't worry Mel the feelings will pass.

It can be a normal reaction, what you are having at the moment, for some people.

When I first got to Indoensia for my year stay there I was the same way...trust me when the fun begins the niggling fears will fade.

Stick with it...

Posted: 19th Aug 2004
You're here to answer the very questions that have arisen as a result of you being here. The why's and wherefores will answer themselves. That's the point, even if it isn't immediately apparent.

And secretly, you're only here so you can come to Cornwall and spin with meeeeeeeeee. (and Bird, Beth, Brad and a bunch of other people whose names begin with B)

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 19th Aug 2004
Flippant answer is that you have gone to learn new poi moves and bring them back to teach Jed and me.

You have been looking forward to this for so long and I think its a great step. It seemed you were kinda stagnanting in your job.
Enjoy it all to the most and you have a lovely time of year to go over!!!

Is it the Truth?
Is it Fair to all concerned?
Will it build Goodwill and Better Friendships?
Will it be Beneficial to all concerned?

Im in a lonely battle with the world with a fish to match the chip on my shoulder. Gnu in Binnu in a cnu

Posted: 20th Aug 2004
Hee hee - Might have to come to Cornwall for a spin! (Thats also where my family originally came from generations back )

Not really homesick yet, got my friends here, and my sister and her boy, and their friends.... Doesn't actually feel like i've left home yet... apart from the weirdos on the tube

Maybe i skipped the need for a holiday, and want to stability bit now - Would be typical of me to do things the hard way

So tired atm.... think Londons not conductive to sleep....

Still working it all out in my head i guess, i know the friends i've had at home i'll have forever so not worried about leaving them really, and don't miss them yet. Not really running from anything, life had been good (apart from shocking housemates) and i've good friends.... so don;t think i'm running....

Maybe part of its cause my dads had to go into hospital for an operation the day i left for a tumour, and now has to go back in again cause its bigger and higher than they thought.... Hmmm..... so much to think on.... and the pace here is not conductive to thinking either

Or maybe i'll just keep on going with the flow and work it out when i get home one day!

But i don't think i'll ever knock being in my comfort zone again!

I smile because i have no idea whats going on!!

Posted: 21st Aug 2004
OOH OOH OOH!!

Cometocornwall cometocornwall cometocornwall!!



Its a bit on the damp side at the moment, but still a beautiful part of the world!

My state of mind is not yours to define!

There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness."

Posted: 21st Aug 2004
I might have to organise a Cornwall trip in October... Or is it too cold to twirl then?? Off on Tuesday to do the Europe trip and back in London afterwards for a week, then Ireland for a week, Scotland for another week, and back to london again mid October... after that will be at a loose end i think? My friend & travel buddy will be going home then, but i have a work visa and can stay longer, and shouldn't have gone through my savings my then anyway. Don't think i want to go home without going to Cornwall anyway... Heard its pretty. And who cares about the damp - I come from a city where they are building a desalination plant because we don't have enough rain for our dams to ever get over 20% full! I love the rain! And everything here is sooooo green!

I miss my fire poi tho - Bought some pretty streamer poi in camden the day i got here, but still not the same thing So glad the hostel has internet tho

Having fun despite my confused jetlagged complaints.... but i'm kinda aimless, but having fun.... maybe i'm just too uptight to relax!!

And what is it with Hostels...? I'm in a mixed room, yet they've yet to put girls in it - Me and my friend are just having a high turn over of single fellas coming thru our room... Not that i'm complaining!

Ooohhh..... i get the damp comment now! Wasn't there some flooding there or something?? Only thing on the tv here in the common room is the Olympics, but someone said something about it to me??

I smile because i have no idea whats going on!!

Posted: 21st Aug 2004
Yeah there was an aweful lot of damp in a few places down here! A couple of villages have been devastated! But yeah, Beautiful sums up Cornwall perfectly (except Newquay at the weekend, thats where all the drunkenness and so on happens, but otherwise its lovely too!)

Maybe we'll have to organise Falmouth III for sometime mid-October then!

My state of mind is not yours to define!

There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness."

Posted: 22nd Aug 2004
Ooooh - That would be fabulous!! Maybe after the 20th sometime would be great!! (just been talked into a mission to Skye, but back in London (or will it be Cornwall?) by the 19/20th-ish)

Keep me informed on whats happening re Famlouth III

Feeling far from home today Been on a bus/tube too long today and had too much time to think.....

Okay... trying not to whinge..... but can't complain to my travel buddy cause she disillusioned enough about London as it is - trying to be cheery enough for the both of us

I smile because i have no idea whats going on!!

Posted: 23rd Sep 2004
I only just heard about the goings on at Falmouth as ive been away for a while. I know a load of southamptoners would be very interested in making the trip down the coast if it was going on again. Is the end of oct likely.
Look foreward to any more news.