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Posted: 8th Nov 2004
MAGS! Don't make me come down there and tan your hide! If you deadify yourself in anyway, thats what I'm going to do. I'll turn your skin into leather and make strange cushion covers out of it. They will have Mags leather on one side and some gross ugly girly flowery stuff on the other. They will be so chinzty and vile you will be sorry! So don't do anything dumb...... or else..... eternity spent as an ugly cushion is NOT the way to go!

You have been warned!!!

P.S. Would you like a Muffin?

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!

Posted: 8th Nov 2004
Muffins are good. I just feel like such a fool. I can't blame her for being bothered by it. I should have just explained the situation as soon as she asked, but i didn't, I said I didn't know. So when I told her the next day that, of course I did know, she naturally assumed I'd been trying to hide it from her. I wouldn't trust someone who'd behaved like that.

GOD I'M SUCH A D*CK!

Bammy, Fluff, Luner, Skully, thank you for the kind words and happy thoughts. This won't be the end of the world, but still i'm so frustrated and angry with myself for being so DAMN stupid.

(Don't panic Skully, I'd never actually top myself, I'm too conceited.:))

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 8th Nov 2004
Oh well! There goes the chance of starting off a new interiors range of Mags leather soft furnishings!

Take good care of you sweetie!

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!

Posted: 8th Nov 2004
iam sending much warm and love filled thoughts!

eat cake.. lots and lots of cake.. its good for you and completly fat free in these sad/yuk/down/feelingstoopid/ etc times!

x

Posted: 8th Nov 2004
Hey mags, long time no see

I hope things get better soon.

Me

"But what would you do with a brain if you had one?"

Dorothy Gale

Posted: 9th Nov 2004
take care

Fear leads to anger; anger leads to hate; hate leads to suffering...

Posted: 9th Nov 2004
Spent the whole day {MONDAY 8TH NOVEMBER} feeling like a complete twat. Brad came over with my new monkey fists. Yay. Even that failed to excite me. Nick cooked a roast turkey. Was very tasty. Spoke to Mojo. She said, "Maybe we should just leave things how they are for the time being." Don't blame her, I'm a f*ckin idiot. Drank beer, smoked and watched "The Last Boyscout" with Nick. Then I went to bed.

TUESDAY 9TH

Just wrote an article about the Mafia for the Student Times. Can't stop kicking myself. Circus Society tonight. Whoopee. Have just learned how to play Dominated Love Slave by Green Day. Hurrah.

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 9th Nov 2004
your not an idiot or a twat.. your a nice guy and youve got to hurry up and see that for yourself!

i dont really know what else to say but i can be here for hugs and a chat:)

L xx

Posted: 9th Nov 2004
Just remember.... chintzy floral cushion covers!

We all say stuff in the heat of the moment at times that we wish we could take back. I doubt there is a single person on this planet that can say they haven't.

P.S. if it makes you feel better I'll hit on you on MSN

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!

Posted: 10th Nov 2004
Tuesday/Wednesday 9th/10th

Circus was pretty cool. Spent the first half playing poi and showing people various variations and stuff. Managed to hyperloop and cut myself at the same time. Heh. I think i see what i did wrong there.

Spent the second half teaching a girl called Charlie how to spin a staff. Girls + sticks = way cool. She picked it up really quickly, and the Society is buying some practise staves today, so soon we should have a little staff school to go with the poi school and the juggling school. (the tumblers, unicyclers and diabolists just kinda float around the edges at the moment)

Once that was done i went on a mission to collect loads of green and then a seond mission to drop it off to everyone who wanted it. That done I went and watched The Contender (wicked film) on 4 with Nick then hit the sack.

Woke up this morning (weds) and couldn't be arsed, so fell asleep again and woke up this afternoon. Just come into college to do some research for a story and to check messages etc. I have to go to Penryn in a couple of hours and spin for some film students making a music video. Have to get all painted up again. Not being paid. Wish i could just go home and read a book. I am kinda planning to go play at open mic night tonight, but i'll probably still have bodypaint all over me, so we shall see.

Mo hasn't rung. I wonder what she's doing. I miss her lots.

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 10th Nov 2004
Her Phone is turned off.

She told me this morning when I saw her in the local shop when I was there buying milk and the papers.

Posted: 10th Nov 2004
what? john - do you know mo?

Geologists do it in the dirt................

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
methinks he's being silly, not nearly as silly as Mags is for blaming himself or as silly as Mo for over-reacting so much.
Mags shes playing you like a badly tuned violin...again...and you're worth far far more than that. I'd have you but it'd upset George far too much so in the mean time....... <- with extra sloppiness

Let's relight this forum

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
p.s.Dig those sneaks mate, verrry nice

Let's relight this forum

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
Wednesday 10th [continued]

Ok, we went to Penryn, got painted red again and spun fire in the middle of the road while some broadcasting students made a music video. Then got a lift back to town, and I went to Jacobs Ladder to meet Nick and Esther (still painted red). Had a couple of pints, watched my housemate Cordelia do a truly bizarre "performance art" piece which consisited of her dancing to La Bamba with a duvet wrapped around her head, while a tape of someone coughing uncontrollably played in the background. I got up and played "Better be quiet now", by Elliot Smith, "Dominated Love Slave" by Green Day and a pretty shitty version of "Bullet with Butterfly Wings" by the Pumpkins. Went home and had a shower, scrubbed all the redness of myself, then wandered back to town and had a smoke with Danielle and Sarah at their place. Left there around half 2, went home. Nick was already passed out so i went to bed.

Thursday 11th November.

Woke up at 2pm. This is not good. As i was lying in bed smoking and planning what i had to do today, Nick came in with a horror story about how hard it has now become to get Hardship loans from the college. Last year is was really easy, you give in a form, a couple of weeks later you get the money. Not so this year. Because the college has amalgamated with the Uni of Exeter (and a bunch of other colleges) to for the Combined Universities of Cornwall (or CUC - Falmouth Art college is now known as FUCA ) the paperwork has become much harder to deal with and it takes a lot longer to get the money.

After speaking to the bank on the phone for about half an hour and being told that there was nothing they could do for me, I decided to run to the bank and withdraw all the money in there. This means that i have to go to the finance office of the college tomorrow and tell them not to bank the post-dated cheque i gave them earlier in the term to cover the advance on my student loan. With me so far? With that knowledge, I'm hoping they'll make extra effort to get me my £500 hardship loan (as I now owe it entirely to them. ) and I now have in my pocket, enough money to pay off my rent. Ta da. Now I just have to find Decembers rent.

Have just been round to my friend Travis's house and collected some photos he took of us at the Hallowe'en party. They are in my gallery.

Not sure what the plan is for tonight, but i may stay up all night and try to get some work done early tomorrow. Or maybe i won't.

love you all

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
A cunning scheme if ever I heard one!

My state of mind is not yours to define!

There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness."

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
Nice pics Mags...... you kind of suit red.

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
I was red last night as well. Doing a party on Saturday, i may go Green.

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 11th Nov 2004
go pink with purple spots.... that will confuse people!

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!

Posted: 12th Nov 2004
Quick one now. THURSDAY 11th

Went into town with Brad. Went to Shades ([censored] nightclub) for rock night, met up with Travis, Vic, Nicola and some others, got drunk, went back to mine, smoked, watched south park, fell asleep.

Friday 12th

Woke up, went and had breakfast, came to college. I'm am far too tired to write anything interesting. So nerr.

Have a good weekend boys and girls.

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 14th Nov 2004
Hey...............had a long day................mind if I make myself a cup of tea?

Geologists do it in the dirt................

Posted: 15th Nov 2004
By all means O Fluffy One! My kettle is, as ever, at your disposal.



Friday 12th



Didn't really do much. Got stoned and hung out with Nick. Went over to Vic's house and mucked about, had a few drinks and played guitar. Ended up teaching people to play with poi in a very small kitchen.



Saturday 13th



Woke up, went and bought paraffin and bodypaint. Bought some pointy ears as well. Brad and Dave came over and we paited ourselves, Brad red, Me green, Dave yellow. We looked like traffic lights (you'll note that I was "Go" ) and it was damn cold (about -2) but still we made it to the beach café by half 8. We span til about 10pm roughly, ending the show with some wire wool poi. The birthday girl and her guests seemed to really enjoy it, and we got to eat a bit of free food and neck a few free drinks afterwards.



We also got paid £100. We spent most of the night giggling that we are now Semi-professional Fire dancers. How cool!



Then we went into town, and span for a bit in the street. That done we hit the pubs and bounced about drinking and getting strange looks for being painted. We even ended up going to Remedies, the most awful nightclub in the world (other than the other two;)) where Brad painted some poor girls face red by snogging her mercilessly. Hahaha. How I laughed! Left the club about 2ish, went and got some weed and then smoked until I fell asleep.



Sunday 14th



Did very little. Vegged. Read some Jacques Derrida. Watched some South Park. Ate pizza. Slept.

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 15th Nov 2004
Oi.

Mags.

Skinup.

Posted: 16th Nov 2004
*yoink*

Let's relight this forum

Posted: 16th Nov 2004
Hey lads, any chance of passing me that when you're done...

Might have to put it out before posting though

Am just coming to sit in your little misery corner for a while Mags, I need to wallow for a while.

Getting to the other side

Posted: 16th Nov 2004
*passes the doobie to one who needs it more*

I'm a bit sad too today, I don't think I can afford to come to Falmouth v2.1

Let's relight this forum

Posted: 16th Nov 2004
Thanks darlin'

Deepest sympathies for missing out Dunc, is there any way you can borrow the cash?

*whimper, wallow, wallow, whimper*

I wonder if there's any basis in that old wives tale that talking to yourself is the first sign of madness? Ah feck it, making little comforting noises soothes me when I'm feeling this down

Getting to the other side

Posted: 16th Nov 2004
Awww. I am transmitting lots of big hugs to all who need them.

Dunc, check the Foulmouth thread, I may have a solution for you.


Monday 15th November

Got up at half 8 and pegged it into college by 9am. Ha ha. Irony of ironies, one of the few times i actually bother to get in on time and my lecture was cancelled. So i hung around and did a bit of work for a couple of hours, then went into town and had a bit of lunch at Blue South with Dani, Lucy, Ria, Sarah and Sarah's mum Wendy, who was down for a visit. Nice little place, Blue, I had a tomato and mozzarella salad which was good, if a little bland. Would have preferred a green salad with olives and feta but the waitress blatantly couldn't be arsed to ask the chef for something so complicated.

While a bit drunk the other day, Nick apparently offered to cook everyone a big roast dinner, so I headed back to our house and tidied up while he roasted the biggest turkey you've ever seen. About 8 Lucy, Sarah, Ria, Dani, Nicola, Nick and I sat down to eat: turkey, roast potatoes, roast parsnips, mash potatoes, carrots, peas, sweetcorn, pigs in blankets, stuffing and gravy. It was truly incredible. Then Brad came over and we drank loads, played Trivial Pursuit, and ate dessert (Lemon Meringue Pie and Baileys Roulade). Nobody won the TP cos we got bored about midnight and the girls went home, so we got even more stoned and went to bed.

Tuesday 16th November

Woke up late as usual. Ran into college for a meeting with my group for Magazines. Established what I need to do for them, then had a coffee and smoke a couple of fags before coming into the computer room to update this. Now i'm off home to write a story for the Student Times. One I should have done last week. Oops.

Life is hectic, but I is happy.

"I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born."

Bill Hicks, February 1988

Posted: 16th Nov 2004
Hey... havent been in here in a while.

Seriously babe all this blaming yourself has got to stop... your gona drive yourself insane. If you wanna chat you know im only a phone call away.

Happy smiles and twirly whirlies. xxx

tHeReS gOoD aNd EvIl iN EaCh InDiViDuAl fIrE, iDeNtIfIeS nEeDs AnD fEeDs OuR dEsIrEs.

Posted: 17th Nov 2004
yay for being happy:D i wonder why *looks around strangely* haha enjoy it mate.

x