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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:today i've found out that i'm a big joke.
what do you do when you find out your not loved by someone the way led you to think you was.
i've just cried all day.
i wont go into detail as i dont want to hurt someone by posting this but i just feel like a prat for opening my heart to some one.
any advice?


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Pooh-Bah
Location: Bristol
Member Since: 6th Jan 2005
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Posted:hug hug hug

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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:thankyou by the way i have a really nice pic of you star smile

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Pooh-Bah
Location: Bristol
Member Since: 6th Jan 2005
Total posts: 1785
Posted:have you got a scanner to scan all your pics in so we can see them??

sorry i'm not great at the advice thing but i'll say a few things.
Don't feel silly for opening your heart to someone. Whatever you do, don't let it stop you from opening your heart to someone else one day.
Time is a great healer, which is a pain when all you want to do is stop hurting now, but it does get easier
hug hug hug


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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:thanks hun. i really hope so smile

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*i was a caterpilla last night wink* - libby_tuesday

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Glåss
Glåss

The Ministry of Manipulation
Location: Bristol
Member Since: 8th Nov 2001
Total posts: 2523
Posted:Mooop.
:sympathy:

I don't have any advice, but I can tell you what Meenik did.
He wrote a book about it, I know cos I finished reading it last night.

Does that mean you need to change your signature?

Here, have a HOP **hug**
Smiles
Drew


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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:oh know its not about the guy on my sig i just own him.
i could write a song i like doing that smile

thanks for the hug smile


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*i was a caterpilla last night wink* - libby_tuesday

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BansheeCat
veteran
Location: lost
Member Since: 29th Jul 2005
Total posts: 1247
Posted:you are never wrong to open your heart, not ever... and love is rarely a joke, even though frequently funny!

I am sorry you are hurting, and big hug to you. But dont let it close you down, stay open. It is the harder choice, but worth it.

sending you a little love right now
~a


"God *was* my co-pilot, but then we crashed, and I had to eat him..."

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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:thanks guys you've all been really understanding.
i'll try and keep my heart open smile


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*i was a caterpilla last night wink* - libby_tuesday

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Lemonkey
Lemonkey

Stalking amidst the desert, carrying an oversized scalpel...
Location: Huddersfield + Hull Uni... UK.
Member Since: 1st Aug 2005
Total posts: 1019
Posted:People cannot be trusted.

Willy - is bad for your health...

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Mistress_Maledicti
Heaven doesn't want me, and Hell is afraid I'll take over
Location: Wolverhampton
Member Since: 9th Sep 2004
Total posts: 192
Posted:You should never feel silly for being open and honest about how you feel - there are too few people willing to say what's really going on for them, and by not being honest you'll cause far more problems than telling people how things truly are.

Anyone who can't see the value of that doesn't deserve the gift you gave them.

*hugs*

sin


"Abashed, the Devil stood and saw how awful Goodness is"

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Carpal \'Tunnel
Location: Hastings
Member Since: 2nd Jan 2004
Total posts: 4172
Posted:Things will always sort themselves out in the end. They always do. I promise.
Brodieman had a lovely signiture once upon a time..'from poo grows flowers'

xx


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HeadSwim
HeadSwim

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Location: at my PC....obviously!
Member Since: 26th Jul 2003
Total posts: 580
Posted:Awww big hugs Lauz hug hug2

Its a hard thing to deal with at the time but like the nice people already said, don't let it close you down to the rest of life's experiences!

Here's a little ubblove for you smile


Nothing is easy.......until you can do it! biggrin

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FoxInDocs
FoxInDocs

Pooh-Bah
Location: Adelaide, SA
Member Since: 10th Jul 2005
Total posts: 1848
Posted:
hmmm i know how you feel hun, i seem to get that alot myself... though i usually realise i'm not liked in the way i thought when i turn up some place hoping to see the boy in question, and find him all over another girl... i'm starting to think it's a big joke being played on me by whichever force it is that guides the universe too... (perhaps it would help in my case to think i'm not that important?) but star's right, time is a great healer...


"i am exotic, and must keep my arms down" - Rougie

"i don't understand what penises have to do with getting married" - Foxie

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Seb
Seb

Penguin of Mass Destruction and Tricky Bugger to the court of Claire the Askew
Location: Check behind you.
Member Since: 5th May 2005
Total posts: 642
Posted:Really good on you for being honest in the first place. That's a really great thing to do even if the someone who you went for dosen't give back the sentiment. The rest here are dead right, don't get jaded, love's a wonderous thing allover. hug grouphug
Empathy to you too, Fox. Unrequited love isn't fun for anyone, as many of my highschool experiences prove in nasty fashion. I'm happy now though, so plesant thoughts and sparkles to you all. smile


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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:awwwwww thank you guys so much. grouphug
you've all been so nice and understanding and i feel heaps better knowing that i'm not alone and people do care.
all the advice you've gave is real helpful as well.
i love you guys so much.
biggrin soon i'll feel much better hopefully and you guys are helping me get there!!


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*i was a caterpilla last night wink* - libby_tuesday

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Pink...?

Mistress of Pink...Multicoloured
Location: Over There
Member Since: 6th Apr 2002
Total posts: 6140
Posted:To make me feel better when i have been down, (which i have been a bit recently, which is neither here nor there) is to cry, write a long letter to someone who you feel is responsible (in this case - this fella) then do something that makes you feel good, like spinning, reading a book, watching a film... then in the morning you throw away the letter. I feel like it clears my head a little. Acts a little like those worry dolls, by writing it all down, you see more sense, and the pain/stress/depression ebb away a little.

hug hug2 hug

Good luck with it all honey smile


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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:thanks hun smile hug

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Kyrian
Dreamer
Location: York, England
Member Since: 15th Mar 2002
Total posts: 4308
Posted:so true pink! good luck lauz....

Keep your dream alive
Dreamin is still how the strong survive

Shalom VeAhavah

New Hampshire has a point....

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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:smile like i said you guys are all great and everything being said has helped so much grouphug

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Igirisujin
Igirisujin

Carpal \'Tunnel
Location: Preston
Member Since: 10th Jul 2005
Total posts: 2666
Posted:Is hard isnt it lauz I just lost someone and its really painfull. You think you know someone and you think they have too love you as much as you love them too, the way they kiss you and hold you close and whisper in your ear how much your loved, but then one day out of the blue everything just stops and its like your in limbo. You dunno weather to keep trying and everything will hopefully go right and you will look back and laugh together, or move on and accept that you'll never get them back, but how can you do that?



You felt miserable and in pain when you didnt know for sure, surly you will feel worse when you know there isnt a chance anymore, you start to hate the person for putting you through this then you feel guilty about hateing them afterwards because you cant just throw away your feelings. My first experiance of love and this is how it turns out



It takes a long time for feelings to change but they do eventualy, there not better for me yet but I can see im at least starting to move on, its best to comfront the feelings and not try to hide from them or surpress them by keeping your day busy, because otherwise they will only hit you in bed at night and thats all you will be able to think about.and you wont even get any sleep an you'll be miserable.



Theres hope for everyone you just have to let yourslef feel the way you need to feel sometimes even if it hurts but its better to grit your teeth and ride it out otherwise you just pro-long it


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'Time goes by so slowly for those who wait...' - Whatever Happend To Baby Madonna?

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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:wow thats so true.
everything all those feelings and stuff.
unfortunately this isnt my first time. i vowed never to love again but i did and i ended up even more hurt than the first time.
it hurts so bad and he's pretty much all i think about all day everyday and as much as it hurts i still love him and want to be with him and if anything bad happened to him it would kill me inside. he's everything i ever wanted and more.
i just cant let go of him no matter how hard i try
frown


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*i was a caterpilla last night wink* - libby_tuesday

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the_poier
the 1337 poier
Location: england
Member Since: 7th Jul 2005
Total posts: 346
Posted:hug uh oh and they smell biggrin

ive got a fuzzbox and im not afraid to use it
R.I.P. gayfest

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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:but your a boy silly do you smell hug

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Arty Farty
Arty Farty

I wear yellow on monday
Location: Farnham Ahoy
Member Since: 5th Jul 2005
Total posts: 551
Posted:Dammit, not another broken heart!!!

Are poiers/twirlers just out to be abused an hurt? I cant believe how many HoPers have been left broken hearted in the past few months. Are we more targetable as easy-going caring folk?

It sucks!!!

Sorry to hear of your misfortune, Lauz,

(insert words of sympathy that wont make you feel any better) hug hug hug hug hug hug


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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:hug
well maybe we are i've sorted most of the problem out now thankfully.


Shhhhhh! the boobies are trying to sleep.
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*i was a caterpilla last night wink* - libby_tuesday

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Arty Farty
Arty Farty

I wear yellow on monday
Location: Farnham Ahoy
Member Since: 5th Jul 2005
Total posts: 551
Posted:good to hear it my lovely!!



hope it doesnt suck for too long biggrin



would you like to join me in having a rolley?



*passes baccy to lauz*


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blu_valley
blu_valley

fluffy mess
Location: Brighton
Member Since: 8th Apr 2005
Total posts: 197
Posted:Aww, I wrote this response ages ago, but got distracted by work...
I'll post it anyway...

many hugs for you honey.Dont let it take your sparkle away though. And yes, I believe many people know how you feel,I'm one of them,and all the previous posters are right, whatever you do, do not close yourself off for fear of further pain. This may sting a little to tell you, but you will get hurt again. Fact of life unfortunately. But do you learn from it and appreciate the good, or do you shrink back. First instinct is to shrink back,but please, dont do it, you have such a beautiful little heart that shines through your smile, and the real tragedy would be to deprive the world of that.

One thing to be aware of ,is that just because somebody doesnt love you the way you want them to, does not mean that they dont love you at all.You are still young and love, in all shapes and forms is what makes life worth living.

So "never frown, even when you are sad because you never know who may be falling inlove with your smile"

Keep smiling

hug


"I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day,and if you can source your own life from its presence.." - Oriah Mountain Dreamer

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lauz the caterpilla
lauz the caterpilla

goddess of all things slimey and an interchangeable insect!
Location: nottingham - the land of oppor...
Member Since: 18th May 2005
Total posts: 2443
Posted:thanks blu, your such a great person and i hope i know you for years smile you make me smile hug
i will try


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blu_valley
blu_valley

fluffy mess
Location: Brighton
Member Since: 8th Apr 2005
Total posts: 197
Posted:wink

"I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day,and if you can source your own life from its presence.." - Oriah Mountain Dreamer

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Arty Farty
Arty Farty

I wear yellow on monday
Location: Farnham Ahoy
Member Since: 5th Jul 2005
Total posts: 551
Posted:well, looks like i'll be smoking by myself then?! I cant even give the stuff away. *humph. takes drag, ahhhh*

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