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babajagaBRONZE Member
old hand
863 posts
Location: Berlin, Germany


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After twelve hours hard struggling with death my mother died three hours ago. We, her whole familiy were there with her. I never saw something like that saw somebody so holding on life and fight but its over now. I know it is good she is not suffering anymore but I'm scared of the grief which is waiting for me.

All my thoughts are with her and there is so much love for her and I'm happy I could tell her that before.

What is psychology?- Looking for a black cat in a dark room. What is psychoanalysis? Psychoanalysis is looking for a black cat in a dark room -- in which there is no cat -- but finding one anyway.


GnorBRONZE Member
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5,814 posts
Location: Perth, Australia


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hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug

Thinking of you ...take care

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Is it Fair to all concerned?
Will it build Goodwill and Better Friendships?
Will it be Beneficial to all concerned?

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spritieSILVER Member
Pooh-Bah
2,014 posts
Location: Galveston, TX, USA


Posted:
hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug

ben-ja-menGOLD Member
just lost .... evil init
2,474 posts
Location: Adelaide, Australia


Posted:
hug

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Location: They seek him here, they seek him there...


Posted:
hug hug hug hug

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BirgitBRONZE Member
had her carpal tunnel surgery already thanks v much
4,145 posts
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland (UK)


Posted:
hug hug hug

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ASTRO FAERIEBRONZE Member
ummmmmmm.............
724 posts
Location: Rotherham, UK


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Im sorry for your loss. But try not to think too much about how to deal with your grief, just do what feels right for you, it sounds like you have a lot of love to give and you have a lot of support, i hope that you and your family can give each other as much comfort as you all need at this sad time.
There are always people on here that are here as a good sounding board, even if its just to have a cry or talk about your mom.
p.s. she'll always be with you making sure you are ok xxxx
All my love and best wishes. hug angel

Only when the last tree has died
and the last river has been poisoned
and the last fish has been caught
will we realise that we
cannot eat money.

Cree Indian, 1909


SkulduggeryGOLD Member
Pirate Pixie Crew Captain
8,428 posts
Location: Wales


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I'm so sorry for your loss Hun.

Don't worry about the grief. It comes in its own time and it is different for each person. You'll find you go through many different emotions such as relief, anger, fear, sadness , joy (yes even joy, the joy of all the good memories and the joy of still being able to feel her love). My only advice to you is let out whatever emotion you have. Don't bottle it up. It is not wrong to be mad or happy or sad...... whatever you feel. It's your bodies way of coming to terms with the loss.

I'm glad you got to tell her that you love her hug

Remember there are people out here that a ready and willing to listen if you need to talk hug

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!


babajagaBRONZE Member
old hand
863 posts
Location: Berlin, Germany


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thanks....hug

we all new it for almost a year now but in the end you cant be prepared...I sit here at home now after we brought my dad home, he wants to be alone for a while... I have these terrible pictures in my head her eyes her scared white face she was just skin and bones, the rattling sound of her breathing...she was so hard struggling... I try so hard to remember how she looked and was before she got ill...

What is psychology?- Looking for a black cat in a dark room. What is psychoanalysis? Psychoanalysis is looking for a black cat in a dark room -- in which there is no cat -- but finding one anyway.


pkBRONZE Member
Lambretta Fanatic
4,997 posts
Location: United Kingdom


Posted:
hug

SkulduggeryGOLD Member
Pirate Pixie Crew Captain
8,428 posts
Location: Wales


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Hun you will remember her as she was. The images you have now will fade and the old images of her will come flooding back. I felt exactly the way you are when my Dad died. I was worried the only image I would have of him would be the one of me finding him dead. Now I have all the wonderful images back and the last not so nice image has faded into the background. hug Just give it some time hug

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!


BirdGOLD Member
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6,086 posts
Location: Cornwall, United Kingdom


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hug hug hug hug hug hug

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ValuraSILVER Member
Mumma Hen
6,391 posts
Location: Brisbane, Australia


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oh sweetheart.
As somene who recently lost someone close from the family also I can only but imagine your pain.
when you feel the grief hitting, you let your self do what ever you need to do to express yourself. We are all here for you, and what astrofairy said was right, your mum will always be around to help look after you.
If you need to talk feel free to pm

Im so sorry to hear this news. hug

TAJ "boat mummy." VALURA "yes sweetie you went on a boat, was daddy there with you?" TAJ "no, but monkey on boat" VALURA "well then sweetie, Daddy WAS there with you"


_So_BRONZE Member
Skinny poi maker
313 posts
Location: Moscow, Russia


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Our thoughts are with you... hug hug hug

babajagaBRONZE Member
old hand
863 posts
Location: Berlin, Germany


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I'm 29 years old and I miss my mom I want my mom... no way back she is gone I will never see her again...........

What is psychology?- Looking for a black cat in a dark room. What is psychoanalysis? Psychoanalysis is looking for a black cat in a dark room -- in which there is no cat -- but finding one anyway.


SkulduggeryGOLD Member
Pirate Pixie Crew Captain
8,428 posts
Location: Wales


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Hun, your mum is part of what made you. She is always with you. Go and look in a mirror and she is there. She is there inside you! hug

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!


babajagaBRONZE Member
old hand
863 posts
Location: Berlin, Germany


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yeah I know when I see in the miror I see her I see so much of her but I want to talk to her I want to be with her I want ... I dont k now I just want her here... I know it will be better but I miss her so much....

What is psychology?- Looking for a black cat in a dark room. What is psychoanalysis? Psychoanalysis is looking for a black cat in a dark room -- in which there is no cat -- but finding one anyway.


SkulduggeryGOLD Member
Pirate Pixie Crew Captain
8,428 posts
Location: Wales


Posted:
hug

Feed me Chocolate!!! Feed me NOW!


Helen_of_PoiSILVER Member
lapsed spinner
412 posts
Location: Dublin, Ireland


Posted:
hug

Those awful memories will fade with time, believe me. i lost my mother just over a year ago, following a 15 year battle against cancer. At first i was haunted by her last hours constantly, and i was afraid that i might lose sight of the person that she was. Now although i still get flashbacks to that time, i only remember her as she was. As a normal person, in everyday life. I still feel lost without her, but i also feel her close to me at times.

Grief is different for everyone. Try not to second guess what you are feeling, or what you think you should be feeling.

i'm thinking of you.

hug

Helen_of_Poi

EJC Ireland 2006 Organisational Team


Psycho_lemmingSILVER Member
Running hippy spinning lemming
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Location: Scotland


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hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hughug hug

thinking of you, if you need to talk i'm always here.... hug xxx

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margitaSILVER Member
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3,777 posts
Location: brizvegas, Australia


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grouphug

do not meddle in the affairs of dragons, for you are crunchy and good to eat!



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DomBRONZE Member
Carpal \'Tunnel
3,009 posts
Location: Bristol, UK


Posted:
hug hug2

Sakura_MoonHop's Kitten Jester.
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Location: Wonderland igloo, Vic, Australia


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hug x 1 million.
I'm so sorry this happened. Dont be afraid of the grief, it has to come in order for you to heal. There are many stages of grief and some are easier than others. If you need to talk to someone, do so. I'm never any good at giving advice to people, but i'll try. If you would like to talk, ever, just pm me or someone else here because we all care for you. When it is hard for you, think about your mum - she would want to help you, she'll be watching over you.
My thoughts are with you

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I am Jack's Raging Bile Duct...

Loving you from the deepest part of my loins.



TheRenolutionmember
39 posts
Location: Victoria


Posted:
hug hug hug
Thoughts are with you man.
Always remember part of her is always with you, and that the good times u had will always out live the bad.
Keep on rockin in the free world.
Rock on, Peace out - Ren

"When a man lies he murders some part of the world
These are the pale deaths which men miscall their lives
All this i cannot bear to witness any longer
Cannot the kingdom of salvation take me home"
- Cliff Burton: "To Live Is To Die" -


GothFrogetteBRONZE Member
grumpy poorly froggy
3,999 posts
Location: Nuneaton, United Kingdom


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I'm sorry frown hug hug hug hug hug hug hug
all my well wishes are with you.

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Bubbles_SILVER Member
Carpal \'Tunnel
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Location: mancunian, United Kingdom


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hug

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ubbcrying hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug

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Posted:
hug hug hug

You have my condolences. Stay strong, you've got support from everyone here.

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babajagaBRONZE Member
old hand
863 posts
Location: Berlin, Germany


Posted:
so two days after I'm still kind of sad... but I never experienced our family so close... life is something special really worth to live and to enjoy as intense as possible... and everybody every single human being should know how special they are how much worth they are





I love you all thanks

What is psychology?- Looking for a black cat in a dark room. What is psychoanalysis? Psychoanalysis is looking for a black cat in a dark room -- in which there is no cat -- but finding one anyway.


MikeGinnyGOLD Member
HOP Mad Doctor
13,925 posts
Location: San Francisco, CA, USA


Posted:
Baba,

First: hug I am so sorry.

I've been through this. And yet I don't have much advice for you. We all have our own experience with death.

The day my father died he visited me. It was in the afternoon and he'd been dead for about 6 hours at the time. I had just returned to my home in Ann Arbor to clean my room (since that's apparently what you're supposed to do when someone dies...everyone suddenly goes on a cleaning spree...it's just one of those things). When I sat down, I felt someone staring at the back of my head. And I turned around and there, I saw him clearly with my Third Eye, was my father.

He was dressed in a full dress Navy uniform and he was in his early 20's. He was healthy, young, and strong. And he was GRINNING at me. His smile spoke of supreme relief, it spoke of a burden lifted, it spoke of a deep love for me, and it spoke of immense gratitude for having let him go (we withdrew support). And in that smile (which I have never seen a living person wear), seemed to say "take care...and don't worry...we'll meet again." And then he was gone.

Since that day, I never mourned him again. I've cried over the loss, but I can't be sad for him. He's fine. He's great! And he didn't seem concerned, so my guess is I'll see him again.

Baba, my advice to you is this: be on the lookout for signs. A good friend of mine randomly found an old picture of her dog she'd had as a kid after her father died. He must have found her (the dog) and was just letting her know.

Be watching. The dead are subtle.

-Mike

Certified Mad Doctor and HoP High Priest of Nutella



A buckuht n a hooze! -Valura


Fire BunnySILVER Member
veteran
1,260 posts
Location: Now in the land of Oz, Australia


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im so sorry to here of your loss. be strong and take care of yourself and your family

hug hug hug hug hug

What if we think the jokes on them,
But really - the jokes on us....

and also... i wuv Rougie *snuz*


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