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hello I am PsyTron and I am clean
I was in relationship the last 5 years of my life(i am 23-24 now) with 3 different people.Normally I thought that there is not any other kind of relationship except serious ones.(when I say serious i do not mean marriage).I broke up with my last boyfriend one month ago.We were together for 2 years.We were practicaly living together.This relationship, i knew it was making me weak:( too much pressure.Here is a song that I like and I have never listened to the lyrics until now... and i think it sais a lot of what i want to say:
here's my life and here's my way
and here's my body here's my pain
meet my mother see my train
get on get on get on get on

walk with me in my strange life
I've no things to show and no things to hide
life is fair and this blooming game
will go on and on and on

this possession never was a question
a healer for this tension
tenderness and pressure
from my warnings all you got was your needs
all you did was promise
you were only fake

little by little touch by touch
our eyes grew cold our hands grew rough
little by little losing touch
hello hello hello hello

failed in trust got sunk in pain
obsessed with love and clouds and rain
lives collapse and this [censored] game
goes on and on and on



the last 4 lines are what i really know from my experience.
In this time of my life I do not want to have any relationship.I have someone that we talk and we sleep together but I do not want anything more.Enough is enough

so what do you think???

"For once there was an unknown land, full of strange flowers and subtle perfumes,
a land of which it is joy of all joys to dream, a land where all things are perfect and poisonous."
"Put out the torches! Hide the moon! Hide the stars!"

Written by: My hairs on fire

Ignor him darlin! you ARE a godess and make sure you keep telling your self that . If you have a ''sleeping together relationship'' but dont actually sleep together and this guy is a complete jerk and wast of time why are you stioll in contact with him?
Your obviously upset about things at the moment so just tell this guy to off and listen to the people who care about you!
I hope you start to feel better soon,
Ahmet x








hhmmmm.... wish u wud take ur own advice darlin... think about it ...

Those who danced were thought to be quite insane by those who could not hear the music - angela monet.

Love you too babe.

Really happy for you and i hope your new fella realise what a great person you are

Its always easier to give advise then to take your own tho

Henry Hill - 'One day the kids from the neighbourhood carried my mothers groceries all the way home, you know why? It was out of respect'...

ahmet_20valve_ahmet(at)hotmail(dot)com
Hope all is well : )

Written by: Mr Majestik

"to be loved is grand, to be prefered is what i desire"





Thanx Mr M - this very succunctly articulates what I've been trying to understand about how i feel about relationships and men. No more men for me til someone prefers - to spend time with me & me over others.


Teejay so glad you're happy, you were GLOWING on sunday! Will we see him at the necxt meet??

'The last rays of crimson on the spindle tree as the cerise fruit splits and reveals its orange seeds in a gloriously clashing colour scheme no-one would ever dare to wear'
Euonymous Europeus

What is psychology?- Looking for a black cat in a dark room. What is psychoanalysis? Psychoanalysis is looking for a black cat in a dark room -- in which there is no cat -- but finding one anyway.

Where the mind goes,
The body will follow...

"but have you considered there is more to life than your eyelids?"

jointly owned by Fire_Spinning_Angel and Blu_Valley

Okay, so update with me.... Yeah, so this Bobo isn't single anymore

We told my family two nights ago... I was so worried about what they would say... Their reaction.... Hugs and kisses! They seemed to all be really happy about it! Now my host dad always has this huge grin when he sees Christoph and I together... I was so relieved - so surprised! - at their reaction. Lastnight while celebrating christmas, Christoph told Oma, and she was also very happy... And even told him it was a very good choice

So, everything is all happy happy, cuddly and good. Then I got my christmas call from Dad in Canada. It was kinda hard, because he is so depressed right now, because it's Christmas, I'm not home, and he and my mum don't really talk. Ever.

Told my dad... He isn't pleased. He started going on and on about the age difference (16, 21) and that I was leaving, and what would happen if we broke up, etc. etc. Like I ahven't thought about that before??? I tole him we both knew the risks we were taking when we decided to be together. And that everyone here is so happy for us! ('yeah, for now they're happy' was his reasponse) I tried to explain that I dont want to worry so much about coming home because it will interfere with my living here! If I let my head get to me, like I was talking about earlier in this thread, I wouldn't have done this, and I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now!!

I guess I'm rather upset about it... I told my brother, he said it was a bit weird, but told me to follow my heart, and do what made me happy. I love my brother so much more for that. Dad didn't even ask if I was happy... Not once.

My mom was working xmas, and wasn't home. I'm so upset I'm almost in tears... My life in Halifax seems so much more depressing than my life here. My brother said he was very glad I wasn't home this year for christmas because of all the problems with my family. If you can call it a family. I never want to leave Germany now.

Excuse me, while I go get some hugs from my boyfriend...

~ Bobo

wie weit, wie weit noch?
fragst mich, wo wir gewesen sind...
du fehlst hier

Henry Hill - 'One day the kids from the neighbourhood carried my mothers groceries all the way home, you know why? It was out of respect'...

ahmet_20valve_ahmet(at)hotmail(dot)com
Hope all is well : )

Henry Hill - 'One day the kids from the neighbourhood carried my mothers groceries all the way home, you know why? It was out of respect'...

ahmet_20valve_ahmet(at)hotmail(dot)com
Hope all is well : )

Henry Hill - 'One day the kids from the neighbourhood carried my mothers groceries all the way home, you know why? It was out of respect'...

ahmet_20valve_ahmet(at)hotmail(dot)com
Hope all is well : )

"but have you considered there is more to life than your eyelids?"

jointly owned by Fire_Spinning_Angel and Blu_Valley

Health is a secondary consideration when you have a lifestyle to maintain

Not seen a Banana do Double staff in the woods? You obviously weren't at that party!

'my guess would be staffers dont waste time talking bollox' - strugz

'The last rays of crimson on the spindle tree as the cerise fruit splits and reveals its orange seeds in a gloriously clashing colour scheme no-one would ever dare to wear'
Euonymous Europeus

Henry Hill - 'One day the kids from the neighbourhood carried my mothers groceries all the way home, you know why? It was out of respect'...

ahmet_20valve_ahmet(at)hotmail(dot)com
Hope all is well : )

'The last rays of crimson on the spindle tree as the cerise fruit splits and reveals its orange seeds in a gloriously clashing colour scheme no-one would ever dare to wear'
Euonymous Europeus

Live your life, the way you want to live it.
So have fun. And be happy
Love you nantheos

I can't be evil; I'm wearing pink.

'The last rays of crimson on the spindle tree as the cerise fruit splits and reveals its orange seeds in a gloriously clashing colour scheme no-one would ever dare to wear'
Euonymous Europeus

"but have you considered there is more to life than your eyelids?"

jointly owned by Fire_Spinning_Angel and Blu_Valley

Bl***y hell - you wrote that when you were 13??? Whilst I might take you to task with 1 or 2 of those sentiments, the concluding sentiment (the bit from 'Love is life for without love....' is such an absolute truth and the stark simplicity of your expression is nothing short of inspirational! Most people dnever get that kind of insight and those that do reach it late

What do you write now? Don't say nothing - that'd be a waste of talent.

And as for being alone in your hometown - i reckon you're right, that's much worse. Reckon it's just us non-conformists never quite fitting in anywhere - leastways that's how I've felt ever since I realised I'm not quite the same as everyone else....

We love you tho hun - and we'd notice if you weren't here

'The last rays of crimson on the spindle tree as the cerise fruit splits and reveals its orange seeds in a gloriously clashing colour scheme no-one would ever dare to wear'
Euonymous Europeus

I can't be evil; I'm wearing pink.

Yup - that pretty much sums up the paradoxes of loving and being in love

i think the beauty of young Mr majestic's ode was that it differentiated between romantic love and love as a driving force, an elemental force, essential to be being human - maybe that's what we lose sight of when we hit puberty and all those damn hormones start flying about.

And maybe that's what we've all been struggling with through out this thread.....

'The last rays of crimson on the spindle tree as the cerise fruit splits and reveals its orange seeds in a gloriously clashing colour scheme no-one would ever dare to wear'
Euonymous Europeus