Confidence in Fate

Flash is a very happy alien today!

For the first time in my life, I am absolutely certain I have made the right decision for my future, and have gained more confidence in the concept of fate and the beauty of life's journey.

Yesterday I accepted a job that I know will make me happy and propel me into developing into the creative and intelligent person I know that I can be!

I am 25 years old and have never known what I want to do with my life in terms of a career. Ultimately, I still don't know, but up until now I feel that I have always settled for what my head has told me to do, and have suffered a constant paradox with what my heart has been yearning for.

When I came back from my 2 years overseas I was at a loss for direction. Throughout my job hunt, I was offered a position at a backpackers in Sydney. The hotel was called Wanderers and at that point (november 2000) it hadn't yet opened. Had I accepted the job, I would have been an assistant manager. Tourism has never paid great wages and because I was also offered a cushti office job with a big Telco paying me way too much money, I followed my wallet and became a personal assistant.

Being a PA was never satisfying for me and I always felt ashamed of myself because I knew I was capable of more. But, being a PA pays well - really well.

Anyway, 2002 was one of massive changes for me - I was made redundant from my cushti job, I broke up my 7.5year relationship, was unemployed for 4 months, had a huge falling out with my best friend, nearly got evicted from my apartment, had to sell my beautiful Jeep before she got repossessed, fell into a depression, accumulated massive debt to family members and ended up having to take the first job that was offered to me - another unsatisfying Personal Assistant role.

Two days ago I handed in my resignation because it has finally occurred to me that I'm just not the corporate administrator type and sitting in an office making coffee for my boss is not my idea of a fulfilling career. My new job will be night manager at a backpackers in the city.

The hotel is called Wanderers on Kent. And for those of you still paying attention, you will notice that this is the exact hotel that offered me the exact same job 2 years ago.

So basically, I'm doing what I was meant to be doing all along, but had to learn some really important lessons and make some major life changes along the way before I could reach that realisation.

I've gone from money-focused materialist to realising that happiness and satisfaction is far, far more important than a fat wallet. It took months of absolute poverty and a huge reduction in pride to work this out though.

Anyway, I could wax lyrical about my crazy and fulfilling journey and how it has brought me to where I am now, and where I'll continue to travel along for PAGES, so I'll leave you with something a wise and beautiful friend once said to me:

"Know Thy Self"

love n light
flash

[ 13. February 2003, 14:10: Message edited by: flash fire ]

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