So this morning my intern wakes me up at 6AM after I've been sound asleep for about a half hour.
Our 16yo girl with sickle cell disease is having increased chest pain and difficulty breathing, no fever. The immediate concern is that she could have the "acute chest syndrome," which is basically a sickle cell crisis of the lung.
For about 30 seconds, a battle raged in my head between the angel: "Get your arse out of bed, Mike, and potentially save this patient's arse because she's in pain and she's having trouble breathing and she needs you!" and the devil: "I'm so sleepy! I just want to lie here! The next team is coming on in less than an hour and they can take care of it!"
This internal argument should *NEVER* happen in a doctor. The patient should *ALWAYS* come first.
But it happens every day in thousands of doctors who have been forced to work 27-30 hour shifts on a regular basis. You weigh your own exhaustion against the patient's well-being and it's awful.
The counter-argument is "If you shorten the hours that residents work, they won't get enough clinical experience and you'd have to extend residency." While residency is intensive teaching, I also feel that it's slave labor or indentured servitude in many ways. To get paid crap for working 80+ hours a week under the guise of "training," when you are, in fact, providing an essential service to the hospital, is just that: indentured servitude.
My issue is that I hate it because it's being done to me, yes... but after this morning I realize that it's
also being done to my patients. Had the devil won that argument just now...

So now I get to spend the rest of my life fighting to reform this system that just got reformed.